Maybe, Possibly

That point in time where you just stop playing piano because the more you play the more you mess up and then the more angry you get and no one is happy in the house. NO BODY! 

It’s been nonstop work today. School, chinese project meeting, MIT, homework, piano and still not done with homework. I am TIRED I SAY. But alas, life decides to be rude and laugh at my struggles ):

I’m just rambling. I should be reading some story about an Oval Portrait and doing math homework. wut. 

I really want this week to just be over. I know my grades are ass and no matter how long I study, there really isn’t going to be some magical event that’s going to bring my grades up. I have just sorta decided to deal with the consequences of not working hard enough this semester and just let it be. So what if I have a 3.0 GPA? It doesn’t mean I’m stupid or anything, it just shows that I didn’t work hard enough the past few months. I know I have the potential to do well, I’m better than a 3.0, I know I am. 

I wish it was second semester already. I wish I had a clean slate before me so I can start over and just work my ass off, cause I will. There will be a change come second semester, I promise.